Something

Stands out to me,

In this deep TERRIBLE mess of ours.



Not sure of what that craving is,
I let it take me.

Into the corner of that emotion which i long.

Which exists
sssssnone.

I found something in this earthquake,
sssssssssssssssssssssssthat i like.


sssssssssssssssssssssssssssWorth holding on to.


Until i realize that i am only yours for entertainment.
For the moment.

Lets save what we have,
as if it could recharge,
restart.


My name is Anais, and i am a blinded.

The sketchy dream,

Long ago.





Of a great time.



A time of being adored,

more than that of now.





ssssssssThis sketchy memory
GRASPS MY MIND.





Tears me away from reality,
Rips my every thought away from me.
Purifies me of all the dark moments that run across my mind.





ssssssssLets

sssssssssssssMy

ssssssssssssssssssMind

sssssssssssssssssssssssSpin

sssssssssssssssssssssssssssssSlow

ssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssAgain.

The awakening of life,
as it is now,
Blackens the happiness once shared in my past.

I thank the past of your being for making me what i am now.

D E S P I T E The Failure.

My name is Anais, and some things i have seen are better left unknown to others.

The burden you carry,

Won't let you live.



sssssssssssssssssssssssssssIts time to move on,


sssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssIts time to let go.



ssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssBefore we collide.



My name is Anais, and my expectations are too high.

As i dream,

There are sights for sore eyes,
hidden behind my pupils.


spaceI must encounter these
ssssssssssssssssssspaceeveryday.

Lets not forget about the guilt, which my eyes will behold.
SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSEVERY
SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSBREATHING
SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSMOMENT.


Forever engraved in my memories,
Forever remembered in my tougths,
Forever hidden behind my lips,
Forever lingering in my vocal cords.


Wanting to let go,
wanting to scream.



My name is Anais, and still keep quiet about my memories.

Everything collides

Everything happens for a reason

I've lived those words for everyday in my life.
Don't we all learn the hard way?



Is
it
not
hard
enough
to
breathe?

Teach me to
STAND once more.


before i fall.



fall for you.



My name is Anais, and i struggle with every word.